"I know people say it all the time, but I really did learn a lot from this year.
1. I've learned that some friendships can be very fragile, yet others can be unbreakable.
2. I've learned that meeting new people is always a good thing; no matter how horrible they turn out to be.
3. I've learned that this really is a small world.
4. I've learned that it's okay to be selfish sometimes but it's never okay to be selfless all the time.
5. I've learned that sometimes, you can't always depend on other people for your happiness.
6. I've learned that misunderstandings can destroy relationships.
7. I've learned that you really can't trust people sometimes.
8. I've learned that it's better to not think of the past or the future, but to live in the present.
&i'd name more but I think I've procrastinated enough... I should have started my homework 2 1/2 hours ago...xD. Well, one last thing.

A door closed for me this year. A couple of them, actually. For a while, I was too focused on trying to reopen them to see all the new doors opening. My new years resolution? 1. To be more independent and strong, 2. to be more outspoken, 3. to be more understanding and kind, 4. to be more patient, 5. to meet more people, 6. to keep the friendships I have and will make, 7. to be less regretful, and 8. to stop focusing on the doors that closed on me and focus more on the doors that are opening up for me - because life.. is meant to be enjoyed. :]"

What I realized about the stuff I learned last year:
1. False. All friendships are fragile. Some are just less fragile than others.
2. True. As much as I wanna say false.. it's not true. Everybody that has come into my life has taught me something important - good or bad.
3. Completely true. Met so many new people that knew friends from back home.
4. True. But it's not okay to be more selfish than selfless.
5. False. You can never depend on anybody for your own happiness. You create your own happiness.
6. True.
7. False. You can't trust people most of the time.
8. True. But sadly, I forgot about this. I should keep this in mind more often.

Resolutions from last year:
1. Not really.
2. Fufilled.
3. Not really.
4. Fail.
5. Fufilled.
6. Didn't try hard enough.
7. ...fail.
8. ... super fail.




&last but not least, I'm gonna try and make a recap post of this fucked up year tomorrow.

New Year Resolutions:
1. Be more confident.
2. Be more mature.
3. Be more forgiving.
4. Write more.
5. Meet even more new people.
6. Stop letting people in so easily.
7. Stop letting people hurt you so easily.
8. Be more independent.
9. Do sit-ups everyday.
10. Be more healthy. Lose weight.
11. Tell Justin I love him more often.
12. Find room mate(s) for next year.
13. Procrastinate less.
14. Care more about school. Study harder. Get better grades.
15. Keep in touch with high school friends.

All I could think of for now.

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16. Be more patient.
17. Remember to not look at the past and the future but to look at the present.
18. Be less regretful.
19. Get one (or two) more piercings. Ear or belly.
20. No more cigarettes.
21. Create more felt plushies and stuff.
22. Blog more about my day &include pictures.
23. Take more pictures.

I love you. Don't ever, EVER forget that.

&Please remember I'm here. I am here.