You know, whenever it came time for me to say something really meaningful about you or to you, the words could never really come up (like @ your birthday party and ... well, now). It's true what I said before at your birthday. It's not so much I don't know what to say, it's just so much to say that I don't know what to say first because we've been through so much together. Here's my attempt at trying to say something meaningful xD

I'm not saying goodbye. Cause of all the friendships that I have right now, this is the one I'm confident will last a long ass time, if not the rest of our lives. I mean look at us now. You've already moved away &we didn't get to see each other everyday or talk to each other every day. But we made it, yknow? We've come this far and we've gone through so many obstacles together for us to ever give this up. If you moving away taught me anything, it showed that nothing can break us. We've been best friends since 8th grade but it feels forever.

I hope you know that you've become a big part of my life. I wouldn't have been able to get through half of the shit that I've been through without you. We weren't always there for each other, but we were there for each other when it really mattered. I love our friendship b/c we don't have to talk to each other everyday for us to know that we still love each other. Thank you for dealing with me & my selfishness, my bitchiness, etc. Thank you for accepting me for who I am. Thank you for always loving me no matter what. You, I am definitely going to miss &saying good bye "see you later" to you Sunday will probably cause me to burst into tears. .<3 Come up to see me as often as you can, k? I love you & care about you a lot, Oppa. Never forget that. Take care of yourself please.

&Oppa? You, of all people, deserve happiness. You do. Don't ever for get that either.

It was susie's birthday today. We went to her house to celebrate and be with each other. We were all happy to be around each other again, but I think all of us knew inside that it was also a gathering to say "goodbye" to each other.

When Mommy (Vicky) left... it was just like hugging Sheridan goodbye. Except this time, it was with the girls. As soon as one of them started tearing up, the rest of them did. Mommy told us she was leaving so we all got up to hug her. It ended up being a big group hug... and Susie realized that she was crying. Soon after, Susie started crying and Virginia saw her and started crying herself. Victoria and Jen had already left. Winnie was out picking up her mom. Wendy &I couldn't look at them because we didn't want to cry.

Later, I hugged her myself. I told her to take care of herself. I told her that I'm gonna miss her. I told her that I love her. &for a second, I almost started tearing, but I walked away before I could. More hugs and "I miss you"'s. I couldn't be in the same room with them as they said their good byes to her. I stayed with Wendy in another room while she kept repeating to herself that she was gonna see Vicky again soon. I watched as Virginia and Susie waved and said their final goodbyes as Vicky walked out the door. They began sobbing and I couldn't watch anymore. After she left, they closed the door and walked back in. Virginia and Susie were still tearing.

It wasn't long until Richard and I had to leave. Hugged everybody goodbye. Made my way towards the door. More hugs and promises to see each other soon, especially since I wasn't gonna be that far away. However, Susie started tearing up anyways. I told her not to start, but she couldn't help it. I waited as Richard slipped on his shoes and glanced back up at Susie. She was getting really teary now. I teared up and my voice became shaky. I told her to stop b/c I was gonna see them soon as if I was trying to convince myself too. Said my last goodbye and they told me to drive home safely.

This is getting harder and harder.

Mommy, I know you're not leaving until Wednesday, but I'm pretty sure that this was the last time that I'm gonna see you in a while. I know that we were never that close, but you took care of me whenever you were with me. When I had that fever, you kept me warm and told me to go home. You watched out for me. You really were like a mom to me at school. I love that I'm the only person you respond to when I shout out "MOMMY". I'm gonna miss doing that. Thank you for taking care of me and being my "school-mommy". I love you &I hope that you do well in college, although I already know you will. I really hope that we get to see each other during breaks and such. I miss you already. I love you &take care.

WinnieSitu. I didn't get to say goodbye to you. That makes me even sadder. You're leaving Tuesday &tonight was probably the last time I'm gonna see you too. This is where the tears are really starting to flow now. Although we weren't consistently close, we had our moments. I love the random visits, the sleep overs, and the random hang outs... almost everything with you was random. I'm gonna miss your loud screetching and the way you wiggle and jiggle whenever somebody tickles or even pokes you. I'm gonna miss your low cut, booty shorts and your low dip tank tops and your turquoise jacket. I'm gonna miss drawing all over you when you fall asleep on me and watching movies together and catching up with each other. I'm gonna miss you calling me "baby" or "sexy" or "honey" etc. I'm gonna miss slapping each other butts and punching each other in the boobs. I'm gonna miss the way you have OCD about writing stuff and how you have write things neatly and perfectly or else you'll do it over and over until you get it right. I'm gonna miss you, period. Thank you for being there to hear my stories. Thank you for being so random and making me laugh. Thank you for accepting me for who I am. I love you, you sexy son of a bitch. Take care of yourself &don't break too many hearts. Visit me as soon as possible because I'm gonna be waiting for you.

I can't do anymore right now because this is getting really hard. I'll do some more Saturday or something when more of them leave me):